The Diary I Never Had

MY BOOKS CAME IN THE MAIL.

I’m going to have a bath and read ellen. <3 

So happy. 

Whats up with customers constantly flipping out at me?

I’m only doing what you asked me too, and if it weren’t for me you wouldn’t be receiving your coffee. Get over yourself. 

Oh, and I have a really huge caffine headache. 

Dear guy who rev’s his motorcycle between 12am-7am,

Shut the fuck up, some people like to sleep. As i’m writing this you’re doing it more frequently and louder. I’m about to shove my foot so far up your ass, you prick. 

I’m going to go watch Mean Girls.

I haven’t seen this movie in such a long time, which shouldn’t happen.. So I should probably get on watching it. It will probably help comfort me on this super stormy night anyways. 

Confession #2: There is nothing better than a cup of tea and good movie.

Confession #1: I have the worst luck with relationships, ever.

I don’t even understand what’s going on.

I feel like i’m slowly but surely losing my mind. I’m losing hope in everything, I’m starting to not care.. this isn’t me. I’m sick and tired of people destroying me. I’m sick of getting my hopes up on everything. I’m done with it. I’m at the point where my dreams haunt me, my life haunts me.. and i’m starting to think.. What’s the point in all of this? What’s the point of waking up every single day to get hurt? This is ridiculous and i’m tired of it.

I just want to disappear.